I’ve lost 20 pounds since last year, you think I’d feel great, right?
My family has been saying for years if I’d lose some weight I’d feel better. I think it’s funny that I don’t feel better. Of course I wish I did, but I also like being right. So I’ll continue to lose weight, and I’ll probably continue to feel the same. I’m not being negative, I’m just stating a probable outcome.
I need to lose about five more pounds, to meet the weight at the doctors office for the transplant list. I’ve been working really hard since October. Well not really hard, if I was working really hard I’ve never cheat. But food is my saving grace, it’s always been the one thing I’ve had when everything else was gone. So I’m not perfect every day but I’m doing a lot better than I have. I’m proud of the progress I’ve made, and I know will continue to make progress.
I don’t know if I need a heart transplant, it’s all very confusing for me. I keep thinking I can will myself better, but I’ve been unsuccessful. However, I will not be giving up. I’ll keep doing what I can do and hope for the best.