Today was good, after a very long time I got a surprising answer. I feel a new sense of peace with this information and I want to share it with all of you.

Today I was told by Dr. Tom, who I’ve come to adore for his genuine attitude, that while I do have heart failure it is not end stage heart failure. This simply means I’m not sick enough for a transplant. Which somehow correlated to the sum of: build up leg muscles, which I think was a polite way to say lose weight, and my quality of life will improve. Can you believe that in 2006 it was recommend I stop all cardio increasing activities and now that’s what I’m ultimately working towards?

So after over a decade of a constant fear of activities that could raise my heart rate, I’m determined to overcome that. I don’t want to be a slave to the fear and pain my body endures. I want to be a Warrior, someone who fights through it all and doesn’t show how the wounds phase her.

A warrior is who I shall become because this isn’t temporary, this is my life.

One thought on “Warrior

  1. Oh wow! First of all, I’m so happy for you that you are NOT in end stage heart failure! And you don’t need a transplant now. I really didn’t know what your medical issues were and I didn’t want to pry. You have such an.amazing attitude – I have fibromyalgia- chronic nerve pain and fatigue and have had it for 24 years and it’s not terminal although it limits my life…the point I’m trying to make is that I think you have a much better attitude than I do. You are inspiring to me. I honestly feel guilty. I think I could learn a lot from you. Anyway I wish you all the best as you do your new exercises. I love your shirt too! Anyway best of luck and thanks for reminding me to have some gratitude no matter what situation I’m in. You’re an awesome person.


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