New Normal

It was really hard getting out of the house today after feeling so bad the past few days. But this morning after my mom called and woke me up at 11:30am, being the 6th time I was awaken since going to sleep that night, I realized I had to get up.

Yesterday I made a promise to myself, a prayer, a beg from the universe, whatever you want to call it. In the peak of what I’ve determined as the WORST pain I’ve felt in a long time, I was desperate and said to myself: “Everyday, no matter how bad you feel, what may hurt or how out of breath you get, everyday that isn’t like this, you will get your ass out of this house and start enjoying life again!”

Yesterday was a wake up call for me because I realized this general feeling that I refer to as “tired” isn’t going away and I will always feel moderately shitty for the rest of my life. I mean, I have several chronic illnesses that have heavily impacted my life and they have totaled my body. I’m running on faulty and missing parts, just doing my best to put myself back together again. I will never be what I once was, but I can look just as good once I’m refurbished.

4 thoughts on “New Normal

  1. Hello and thanks for connecting! I really like what you said in this post. Coming to terms with the fact that I may never be back to having the vitality I once had is something I’ve struggled with too, but in more recent times I’ve tried to embrace that some days are still better than others. I have a new “normal” now; on those good days I can still get out of the house and live life. I wish you the best ❤

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  2. Thank you so much for checking out my post, I love connecting with fellow warriors! I hope today is a good day for you ❤️

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